I've been paralyzed by fear of making decisions which resulted in inaction and wishing someone else would make the choice for me.
I didn't trust myself.
I was afraid of making mistakes, of being blamed, of disappointing people. I still am afraid of those things. And I still get paralyzed by that fear.
I'm deciding to look that fear in the face and take action.
I have the power to change my life.
I have the power to create the life I want.
It hasn't been easy. In fact, it's been very very painful, heart wrenching, and scary.
It was all uncharted territory.
I had to look into the deep, dark corners of myself that I spent so long trying to hide and bury out of shame. I had to learn how to trust myself and discern what was my own truth and what were hurtful and abusive projections and criticisms from others. They were not mine.
I shared this with a friend this week but it's a message we could all use or be reminded of.
Other people can't make your decisions for you. I want you to trust yourself and your decisions. I want you to take responsibility for your choices and your actions. You are strong and capable and powerful and resilient and can do this. Don't let anything from your past tell you otherwise.
Show up and do the work. Go through the darkness and on the other side is bliss and freedom. ✨